Let’s just skip that for a while though…

I am having a birthday on Monday. So, it’s not only my blog that should be upgraded, me my self too. What have been my weaknesses all this time, I should be able to overcome it, and what I am always good at, I ought to maintain it, keep up with those things, or let say upgrade it. I am not going to discuss what the weak points and the good values of mine here, since it’s something secretive. However I do have these wishes and longing for some dreams, that I hope everything will go along just fine not only according to my plan but God’s will too. Here I would like to say Amen…

Anyway just for the info, if you wish on giving or sending me some cakes, gifts, parcel, bouquet, birthday card or other things on my birthday which I am gladly inform you again on Monday (please do, don’t be shy, I’ll be happy for it), just send to the following address:

The contact number is (021) 515-2727. Who knows not only wishing a happy birthday, some of you in fact are curious to know what my company’s doing…, just give me a ring, and I could brief you, if you get more interested I can ask people here to help you understand, depends on what subject you wish to know. If you’re into Mutual funds, then I can bring in to you our marketing people who are specialized with these things. If you’d like to know about the product itself, may be I could bring you directly to our product staffs just so you know how woozy the process is just to launch a new product fund. You can also talk to our Fund Manager or Analyst about the current market, the trend, and forecast, whatever crap… If you are interested on investing your assets in equity, our broker can assist and give you detail information on how to subscribe, the buy and sell fee, or anything… And if you are interested in being part of our team, well.., That’s easy, just send your recent Resume with other certificates attached to above address, attention to Human Resource Department.

So, What kind of job I do there? If you read my blog from the beginning, you’ll understand that my job has something to do with assisting. I am a personal assistant (PA), serving one of the important person here, but lately I am like having these double jobs by serving another guy who in fact has the highest position in the company. 

Hm.., I guess more heads, more jobs mean extra earnings too, don’t you think???

I read this book “The Catcher in the Rye”. I just know myself about this J.D Salinger’s book. Actually like around 1 month ago I was in this bookstore looking for one to buy. I love spending time in book stores, can spend hours depends on the mood. I won’t get bored. Let say that I like the surroundings. One time my friend was like asking me this. “I know what makes you go to that bookstore a lot (she named one famous bookstore here), because of the cute guy u met there, right?” and I said “you take that back, I always like bookstores, but well… yeah I should admit it’d be entertaining if there’re some hotties there”. This conversation was quite a while ago, and that time I did saw a not bad looking guy there, but anyway I just saw, and yeah that’s all… I think he’s younger, you know those college boys who probably took a part time job there, and I never see him again now, perhaps back to college or moved to other sub branches… I donno…

Anyway back to the main topic, about this book. So while I look around, I noticed this J.D Salinger, yet I donno what’s the book all about. I even held it on my left hand, but instead I finally chose the one on the right by Paulo Coelho. Just then I felt sorry since at the end of that same week, when my boss happened to be out of town, I saw this movie which inspired by the book. The movie called “Chapter 27”, based on this real story about Mark David Chapman, that crap who successfully murdered John Lennon. I don’t really follow this John Lennon guy though, and when I watched the movie it kindda almost reach the ending. So I didn’t really get the plot. You know what I mean…

And not just the assassination of Lennon, but this book kindda reveal its secret that some other murders or attempted murders was also inspired by this book. As an example John F kennedy who was shot by Lee Harvey Oswald, and another example was attempted murder by Mehmet Ali Agca whose target was none other the pope John Paul II. I am not gonna explain you here not even brief you, since you guys can just Google it.

Those kindda things made me curious for sure. What’s inside it that taught these killers? The funny thing is some friends was like confused why I had this sudden interests with this book, they had these thought that I probably already listed down who am I gonna aim to shoot or whatever… Hahaha…  

so well… I just told them, “Yes…, indeed I am”.

Now I have the book even though I still haven’t managed to finish it. hahaha… I should probably search for the DVD later…  this Chapter 27….

This is the Lazy me who speaks by the way…

My problem wasn’t stop at that point. If you could just picture it yourself in this situation: you are so tired, and how you wish you can relax, watching TV or anything or just read or do whatever at home after a really exhausting day and then you’re surprised by the darkness surroundings, and you can’t have any cold water since the refrigerator’s off, you cannot into sleeping since it’s so goddam hot in your room since your air-con doesn’t work, plus you’re confused “how am I gonna have a shower with no light”. Well, that kindda happened to me when I got home. The electricity power was loss somehow and they said it’s already like 4 hours. Can you imagine? 4 hours?!! Lucky I was still in the office. I could imagine people were stuck with this blackout. I couldn’t even stand it even only 10 minutes… I mean come on…

The thing about Blackout is simple. I HATE IT!! Have I told you that I have a so called “Phobia” with this thing? I don’t know when, where and how I got it, but somehow I started on feeling panicky, sweaty, and hardly breathing, I can’t concentrate my mind on anything, just your emotional part that seems working. No electricity means no signs of life, that’s according to me. I never get along with this goddam Blackout and I know I never will…

It’s actually my thought since morning on how nice it was if I could just skip work and laying around at starbucks reading book. I never can read in the office even my boss is happened to be out of town. It seems to me that yeah… office is not a very recommendable place to read novel. So knowing that I wouldn’t do any good at my house just keep whining and sighing because of the blackout, I went to this starbucks store at nearest mall after spending like 10 minutes at home, bored. Not bad, at least I could run away from the idea of not doing anything that night. And can continue on my reading to chapter 7 now.  (proudly i said it.., and still have 20 more chapters to go. haha…)

So anyway, at least one dream came true. I managed laying around at starbucks. That’s a good point though…..

So yesterday, I didn’t cook or anything at home. Quite hungry, and the only food left in my cabinet is OREO Biscuit, lucky I did have a stock of Milk at the refrigerator. So like any kids will do (since I know those who are into OREO are usually Kids), I prepared a glass of milk, put the OREO on the table, and started the ritual. First you twist the Oreo, You lick the creamy white cream, and then you dunk it in your MILK. Twist, Lick, Dunk. Yum… yum… see… then I found out not just an OREO, but a package of OREO gone in a sudden for the proved that they’re resting in my stomach.

I told you I became addicted right? Yes, that night and in fact now I just finish my third Oreo. At least last night I didn’t have full package of OREO. Haha.. The thing about this “Double cookies with cream” is although they came up with some variations of flavour now, still I go with the original one. Skip the chocolate crème, skip the strawberry crème, double delight (2 flavours peanut and chocolate), and all that, and they even came up with the Soft cake version and Wafer rolls and wafer sticks. They all taste like crap. Well… It’s still delicious though, but I’d rather choose original flavour, and this DOUBLE STUFF version is really an IDEA….! It’s the original flavour but it’s like they double the cream, make it even better, not forgetting the Milk.

So now you know that I am fond to EVERYTHING that contains OREO. Milkshakes, ice cream, chocolates, cakes, you name it…. McDonald for example has OREO flavour for its McFlurry. They didn’t produce it no more in Indonesia, I always wondered why? Instead they kept the Milo and M&M’s flavour, which according to me don’t taste as good as the OREO ice cream.

Constantly, as my writing can be provoking in a positive way…, I now do have a greater desire for this OREO , it makes me hungry even more. I am done with the biscuits however I am just gonna go out to Dairy Queen now to get the ice cream. They do sell my favourite OREO BLIZZARD ICE CREAM. I’d go with the large size since the weather is so fucking hot here. And well… I just love Ice Cream and these bits of OREO make the idea of having an Ice cream even yummier…

No wonder if this question was asked to you especially when you are surrounded by family relatives or let say a “long time no see” friends. Usually if there’s a family gathering I already prepare myself to shut my ears, and request my brain to automatically just rejecting this kind of question.

As a 26 (my age, not the size of my breast) I do getting worried sometime. Can you imagine, my best friends at work already got married, and they all like younger than me. I never think this as a burden, however there’s a slight in my mind that kindda knock me, “I am JEALOUS with them, they can marry below 25. I don’t even know whether there’s someone out there who wanna marry me or if I could love someone and marry him”. While the rest of my brain (I call it as the EVIL one) was like “who cares..!! At this era of global warming I mean globalization, and your head still aching just thinking of getting married??!

Well… I DO. And just noticed I do…

My previous boss (you must be wondered how many bosses do I have exactly) just had baby twins. So I went to these baby stores today to hunt for a few gifts as a present in order to express my excitement. You should look at all the tiny-tiny pieces they have there, so cute… And that was when my sense of motherhood socked by, for the fact that I am longing for babies too. I can’t wait to have babies. Even a retarded, psycho people know to have a baby you should go marry someone, and I can not just pick or seize any one to get me married just because I want a baby, right…? If that’s the case, then I think I am in fact retarded myself. If you say I am too picky, yeah…I guess I am picky, this is a matter of life.  I can’t be like this to some guys I am not really into, “oh…Okay, I’ll marry you since I donno who else gonna ask me this”. Then a month later after you married, you met your old time schoolmate or whoever that u really have a crush on, and turn out he feels the same as yours. So what am I gonna do then? Just get rid of my husband, get divorce??! That’s the least I dare to do.

Sometimes I do wondered why it so hard for me to like some others whilst your heart still focusing on someone. It’s like you’re stuck with this someone whom you don’t even know whether he likes you or not. This is really ridiculous. I know, yet this thing has been going on and on and on. If I could just wash my brain and get it upgraded, so I could think someone else besides this someone. Being a woman is not easy especially about how to express feeling. As a woman, there’re still some parts which beyond our ability. Aggressiveness, some people don’t mind though. I just couldn’t myself. I am not that kind of person.

At the end, i realized that one weakness of being a woman is you cannot easily tell someone that you like him, and the stupid thing about a guy is He just DON’T realized it. If only I could go inside people’s brain then I’ll go to his and I will go mess up his brain. Wondering what’re there inside his mind?

Is there a piece of me inside his? Hope so….

Theoretically I have one Boss whom I must assist in order to get my monthly paycheck. He’s the one who lives near me. Let’s put him aside for a while to view the fact that on the other hand, there’s this guy who happens to have higher position than my official Boss. So yeah.., practically he’s my Boss too. Unfortunately, serving him doesn’t add up the calculation of my paycheck. I was helping him a lot by putting these labels actually. By this I meant sending out the invitations. He’s getting his doctorate degree next week. I never know organizing this kind of event is similar to organizing a wedding. And since my boss is such a Last minute type of person, he really succeed in making all of us panic. You must be wondered where his own assistant is, right…? Well… turned up that she’s overload with some other tasks, that’s why he kindda asked me whether I could help out as well, by in charge of those other things that his own assistant couldn’t catch up.

Hope he’s doing okay with all the preparations and get passed. Since me kindda have an agreement with him. I asked one time, that if he passed the exams, the thing that he must do first besides thanking God is treating me at an expensive restaurant (remembering he’s one of the important man in our company, this is something easy to do). Hahaha…

So anyway let’s just wait and see whether that agreement is going to be accomplished, if not there might be another agreement then. I do must have an outlook for my personal financing though. So I guess triple-add bonus or an increment on the income side should work just fine.

Here I give a big Grin…………

There he was, at the lobby waiting for me. We said Hi, asked each other “how are you”. That sort of questions applied to a long time no see friend. We had dinner at this Chinese restaurant and placed our order, noticed the awkward moment. He was staring at me deeply with those brown eyes. I couldn’t help myself not to look at him as well. Yes, it’s really been a while. What happen to those days back in school? We never go out on a date like this before, not even a long chat. If only we could turn back the time.

No conversations at this point, only an intense look, until the waiter brought us the drinks. I said “something wrong with me?” he replied with his eyes still on me “no.., no.., nothing’s wrong. It’s just…, well.., I think I’ve missed you” I said “oh…?” The waiter came up for the second time to place our food. Then he continued “I think we should do this more often”.  I replied him “huh? What to do more often?” he said “well… We should hang out more often. Don’t you think?” I told him “um… yes. I’d love to do that”. We talked about all things for about 2 hours. Discussed this and that, and then laugh at it. He offered to drive me home.

“Thanks for the dinner and the ride of course, I enjoy it tonight” then he said, “I had fun myself too, nice meeting you, so I’ll pick you up tomorrow?” I said “sure”. We were somehow disable to talk for a while and finally I said “yes.., is there something you want to say?” he answered “yeah.., um.., good night, have a good sleep anyway”.

Sure I’ll have a good sleep tonight or probably not sleeping at all thinking of tomorrow. I wasn’t quite sure what time I slept. It’s really an exhausting day. It occurred to be a nice scene meeting my childhood friend whom I barely know and had a chat with him like it’s almost real. Kindda late, I know. We should have done this long time ago. But it’s ok. Better late than not doing anything, right…? I really can’t wait for another 18 hours to meet him. I sleep and in my sleep I dream of him.

A sound startled me and I woke up, apparently I still let the TV on. I grabbed my mobile phone to check the time. It showed 3.20 am FRIDAY.  I was leaning my back against the edge of my bed, reached the TV remote and turned it off. Then sighed “I wish its SATURDAY instead………”

Unfortunately the scene above only happened in my dream.

Before the holiday last week, my boss kindda asked me, “Are you taking a break, sha?” YES…!! That’s what the Evil me wanted to say and feel sorry now why I didn’t listen to my Evil side. Instead I said “No sir, I am not. It’s just that lately I was too much off from work, because of the sore throat last week, and not to mention I was already took my leaves for 3 days at the end of august. So yeah.., I am not taking any more breaks next week, Sir…” turned up that he’s not taking any leave too, but he let me if I want to take it.

 I was doing this conversation in his car. My boss drove me home that night. Don’t think negative. My house and his are in the same complex. It’s like only 15 minutes walk to reach his house, 10 minutes by bicycle, 5 minutes by car. I never have the guts to say yes whenever he asks me whether I want to go along with him to get to my home, especially if I had to work a bit late at the office. SHY maybe the proper word to express my feeling.

He hasn’t in the office yet the moment I type these words. I have another expectation now, if only like 5 seconds from now, my mobile phone beep and he text me that he’s not coming, that he’s taking leave. Because if he is, there’re some possibilities I could do. First, I can sit and relax as today have no burdens of anything that concern with working. Second, since me pretty much not doing anything, I could watch cable TV in his room. And third, I could just go home earlier today. By this I meant at lunch hour. Hahaha…

 Well, not one of those 3 possibilities going to happen. Yes.., my mobile phone beep, and yes.., he did text me a message, but instead of saying I m sorry I don’t think I go to office today, he said “I am on my way sha… Could you turn on my computer please…?”

 Awwww…………….

Ring a bell to you with this Christmas carol? Who doesn’t know this song? I love it so much. I don’t know why, maybe because last night I watched this movie “Whisper”, oh… good movie though. It’s from the same who produced “the Omen”, but I like Whisper better.

I pretty much hearing this popular song during Christmas time (which is around 2 months later if you count now. haha…). I’ve got the instrumental version by David Foster on CD and the choir version (not the same choir as from Whisper) on cassette. But I don’t know where they are now. Anyway, I tried to search on youtube, and voila.., I got both versions, and many others, and they are all beautiful.  So I played it, turned the volume quite high, coz its so damn good when you listen to instrumental music with a rather high volume. Suddenly, my Dad merged in, and asked me “where did you get that music??!!” I said “from YouTube Dad. Why?” responded to that he was like “CAN YOU JUST DOWNLOAD IT AND SAVE ON COMPUTER. Please…?” hahahahhaa… yeah.. He’s always into classics, instrumental kinds of music. And what I did is GENIUS. He loves this song so much. Haha…

Actually I am getting trouble to download it, so fucking long. I persuaded him to just buy the CD again, since I guess my old one is missing somewhere. The one I post on my page is the instrumental one by David Foster (source from: youtube), click and enjoy it. I’d decided that i insert the choir version too (taken from “Whisper” movie). Carol of the Bells by Seattle Girls Choir incase you are curious, here’s the lyrics:

Carol of the Bells Lyrics

Hark how the bells,
sweet silver bells,
all seem to say,
throw cares away

Christmas is here,
bringing good cheer,
to young and old,
meek and the bold.

Ding dong ding dong
that is their song
with joyful ring
all caroling.

One seems to hear
words of good cheer
from everywhere
filling the air.

Oh how they pound,
raising the sound,
o’er hill and dale,
telling their tale.

Gaily they ring
while people sing
songs of good cheer,
Christmas is here.

Merry, Merry, Merry, Merry Christmas,
Merry, Merry, Merry, Merry Christmas.

On on they send,
on without end,
their joyful tone
to every home.

Ding dong ding… dong!

2 hours there still I can manage, but the sizzling weather as the sun rose up and my inability to keep both eyes wide open made it worse.  Since they don’t provide cold water, I went back and forth to buy it from nearby booth (I can’t drink anything unless it’s cold or at least got ice on it, especially in such a hot day like this), and not just bottles and bottles of mineral water. Any kind of cold drinks, you named it…. I begged my parents to let me just go home,  they were like,  sure.., but wait at least until the procession at the hospital over. Of course they understand my situation. I bet they felt the same.

So anyway, I managed to get home finally, skip the burial. Whatever lah…

The funny thing now, I am facing yet another problem, this is so stupid!! I am sleepy but cannot sleep. Sighhhhhh.. Perhaps I am gonna take a bit of cough syrup later so I can sleep well tonight. (Relax.., its not happening all the time, like I always need some medication first to sleep). Just notice that tomorrow is my last holiday. Fiuhhhh…. What a time to spend holidays….

Hm.. Have u guys realized how quick these days passed?